Moving out.

To:

http://www.forever.as/yas

Bored.

God, I just don’t complain enough, do I?
I’ve been studying really hard since last Tuesday. I feel so tried right now that I just want to end this school-life and not go through it ever again. I’ve never been so sick and tired like this before. For instance, yesterday I had to study Physics – which is, really, an easy subject – but it took me more than 8 hours to finish! I had to go to bed by 12:30 AM leaving one chapter behind because I was too tired. So I woke up at 4 AM and tried to finish the whole thing, take a shower, knock on mom’s bedroom door and tell her to pray for me. I go to school and I discover that everyone had the same exact problem (is there some kind of gas in the atmosphere?) but when I took the test I was surprised by how easy it was. It just didn’t worth all the trouble I went through. I have an Islamic test tomorrow (Hadeeth), and I hope I do well. Because, usually, when I don’t have trouble studying the subject, there always has to be some mistake. I can’t wait to finish on Monday.

I’m a horse!

I was googling my name just five minutes ago (I know, this sucks), and I came across a horse that is… shockingly a lot like me!

http://www.horse.com/classifieds/showhorse.aspx?HorseID=16243&Type=Horse

  She’s she, and I’m a she. She’s 15, and I’m 15. She’s Arabian and I’m Arabian! Wow. lol.

  Anyway, google yourself someday, you’re going to find something exciting I assure you.

Peace: one as all.

my friend and I talked about how the world is going these days, with all that war and stuff. We didn’t mean “war” as in global war. No, we meant the war that the individuals go through every day with themselves and the people around them. I remembered when I was having a fight with everyone just because I didn’t like something or I didn’t want to do something, and I actually regret it, because, there’s nothing that’s worth getting mad for/because of. These were just small things that I wouldn’t have even remembered after two months. So why bother with them now?

I believe everyone should know this, because when I knew this, I started looking at the world in a different way, I became more forgiving, and thus, more happy and satisfied. I want everyone to embrace this feeling I’m having. Because, I really do care about the world, and I want to make a change.

So, we decided to start a project named [1], and it speaks to the world, why? Because we should all unite and be one, to help each other, support each other, be for each other when needed, not say or do harmful things to one another. Because that’s when we all going to be at inner, outer, and global peace. But when I checked in the internet and googled “One”, a lot of non-profit organizations came to shock me. Especially the one at “one.org”, which is a non-profit organization I believe – just like I was planning to do, it says “let’s make poverty history”, so I supported them, in fact, I’m planning to make a group here in Riyadh. Just when the time is right, but for right now, we have to catch the bigger picture. We have to make the world one, and at peace. Therefore, there won’t be hunger, or poverty. But since we’re a peace organization we’re not supposed to “fight” people to reach for peace. We’re supposed to make them want peace with all their hearts. So I decided to change the name [1] because apparently, it is used. I went and searched last name for a name for the project for 3 straight hours! But came back with nothing. At times like these, you really hope someone would find your blog so he/she can give you any suggestions.

 But if someone did happen to come across here, the organizations speaks of:

1- being one.  

 2- being at peace. 

3- removing all that’s bad and bringing all that’s good.  

     Project name: Peace 

  “There is no way to peace; peace is the way.” ~ Gandhi  

   Project purpose: Spreading inner-peace, outer-peace, and global peace to every single individual in this world. 

    About the Project:We don’t like the way our world is going, we want to change it, but not by force. Because all we want is peace. We’re the Anti-war people. 

   Peace Day – September 21(Everyday will be the 21^st of September)   

And that is so you’ll have an idea about what I’m speaking of right now.

 

  

Thank you so much for reading.

White Socks.

 

The internet is off, I’m writing this in a word document.   My brother makes me sick sometimes, the other day he wore my socks and told me to stop buying white socks because they were similar to his. He just started wearing them for god’s sake, while I’ve been wearing the same exact kind of socks since I was 12! He’s the one who should be some navy-black socks or something. Besides, I think he’s the one responsible for this internet disconnection. No wonder I never liked him. 

  Only four days left until we start our semi-finals, it’s going be one hell of a week and a half. I’m feeling tired already. I’ve never been so sick of studying like this before. I wonder how will I feel next year – just right before graduation. I really can’t stand school anymore. I just want to take a break from everything and take care of myself, you know, sit back and relax… and heal the corns I have in my foot. My brother is going to graduate in less than a week. Lucky him. He also got an A in his presentation! I feel so happy for him. 

Leaving.

 I was talking to one of my best friends, Reema, about getting out of the country, well, she thought about this crazy idea – not me. I told her it was a great idea. But it’d be so difficult for us, especially because: 1- we’re young. 2- we’re women in Saudi arabia.   We planned to travel around the world in 365 days, and experience all there is to experience. Taking the year off school, work, and social events. Wow, sounds amazing.

Misheard.

Lmao. 

AMIRIGHT?!eleven

Why is it hard for me to write posts.

  I’ve always been the kind of person that people used to call “talkative”, but that changed. Apparently, I was too happy to be in this world. Your world. Some of my friends used to say, “Wow Yasmine, you had a marvelous life, what happened now?”, but they were wrong. Two-three years ago, I was miserable, I might have looked happy, but deep down, I was miserable. I had all the reasons to be a happy person, but I wasn’t. I had love, I had social life, I had fun, I had traveling. But now, I’m missing all those things (or some), and I could say that I am a lot more satisfied than I was before. That’s why I believe that the way your view the world isn’t really true. Because it changes from time to time. The world could be mean, and cruel, but you still believe in it. And at other times, you’re having fun, but getting tired.   Because of this, I believe everyone should view the world in hope. You should have faith, in every single thing (that is hard to do of course, but you might start with having faith in little things.), so be true to yourself, and be true to others, because that is truly when you get satisfaction.

   Anyway, about my posts- I was wondering if I should republish some of my old posts here or if I should just continue to write what’s happening to me right now. Or if I should write them in Arabic or in English. But, I chose to write about my life and what’s happening right now instead of going through my past. Even though it’d be a lot more interesting if you knew where I was and see where I am now. But this is over.     Thank you all. Even if no one actually reads what I’m saying right now. But that’s just in case if you read my “real” first post here.

Let Go

You danced with me in the moonlight
And I found me theme, roses bloom you inspired me
And the break of day fell upon me
And the light outshine
And you broke the spell that had kept me from loving you

I came to you for answers
I left confused

You play charades and the stars bow down
And I saw your face; I loose my self on a Saturday
It had been so long, so I question, I question everything
It’s no surprise the time was right and you saw it in my eyes

I came to you for answers
I left confused
And you moved me and you promised you would let go
Now I need you and I want you to know
I am spinning
Out of control to be with you
I know that, who you are…

I came to you for answers
I left confused
And you moved me and you promised you would let go
Now I need you and I want you to know

I’m steeping out today (I came to you for answers)
Pushed all the demons away (I left confused)
I’m steeping out today (and you moved me and you promised you would let go)
Pushed all the demons away (now I need you and I want you to know)
I’ll come through